Technically 5 weeks and 2 days today. Such a weird thought!! I’m actually PREGNANT. Not that I feel it at the moment; it’s the weirdest thing ever. This one feels so different to my previous pregnancies; I feel like I wanna shout from the roof tops that Emelia-Michelle will be a big sister, and I’ll have another baby. Yes it’s weird, coz my numbers were so low on day 9 – and my fertility nurses have been so apprehensive. I’ve been talking with my midwife; and instead of doing another blood test – I’ll just have a 6 week and an 8 week scan. Which suits me fine. Technically I could (date dependant) be seeing this baby next week, I’m looking forward to seeing its little heart beating along.
I really really want to tell my Dad; but he’s going through a really rough stage again with his liver cancer. It’s spread into his spine – and he’s gone through some radiation which has left him feeling really crumby.
I feel sad not telling him; but I also know it’s just not the right time.
Life’s also a bit crazy in my Mum’s life; and I really want to tell her too – but again; finding the right time is hard.
My due date is the 25th November! I was due on the 25th January with Emelia; and both pregnancies transfer date was the 9th. So I’m hoping these are all good signs! I have already had a baby boy dream, and several people have randomly approached me and suggested they see a boy in my life soon. So many spooks! So I feel like this babe may well be a little boy blue!
As for symptoms so far: Lots of uterus cramps, which sort of freak me out – but they come and go. No spotting or bleeding; so hopefully I’m ok! I have a horrendous cough, the same I had with Emelia-Michelle’s pregnancy; so I’m guessing that’s a thing! And then the hangover feeling – where I’m no super nauseous, but wouldn’t say I was “comfortable” either!
Till next time xx